|Posted by Terrie (Nana) on December 20, 2014 at 4:15 PM|
Its always hard, but when the xmas or children's holidays, come round its so much harder, our heart break a little more.
We see other little boys his age and think of what we would be doing with Cameron.
The little ball that hangs on the tree, saying merry xmas cameron.
Baking biscuits, going to see the lights, snuggled up all cosy in bed reading the xmas story.
In 2012, we found out we would be adding a little one to the family, another little boy.
On Boxing day 2012 John Junior was born,we call him JJ. There was so much joy and thankfulness.
But something was missing Cameron ( My Son )
We will always do something in honor of Cameron but does this bring heaviness to a happy season, do we annoy others, do we push people away because they don't want to listen.
Always judging ourselves, worrying, what other think.
So do we grieve quietly hush hush.
The answer is simple, NO! we want a way to honor Cameron and we do that by talking about him sharing pictures thoughts. Please dont assume that saying nothing about Cameron will keep us from hurting. It does the exact opposite.
We may get misty eyed, go quite, laugh, or any number of reactions....but we will know that you care.
No matter how many brother and sister Cameron has, there will always, always, be a sadnes in our hearts.
We want JJ to be raised knowing that he has an older brother watching over him.